内容简介

From the indie rockstar of Japanese Breakfast fame, and author of the viral 2018 New Yorker essay that shares the title of this book, an unflinching, powerful memoir about growing up Korean American, losing her mother, and forging her own identity.

In this exquisite story of family, food, grief, and endurance, Michelle Zauner proves herself far more than a dazzling singer, songwriter, and guitarist. With humor and heart, she tells of growing up one of the few Asian American kids at her school in Eugene, Oregon; of struggling with her mother’s particular, high expectations of her; of a painful adolescence; of treasured months spent in her grandmother’s tiny apartment in Seoul, where she and her mother would bond, late at night, over heaping plates of food.

As she grew up, moving to the East Coast for college, finding work in the restaurant industry, and performing gigs with her fledgling band–and meeting the man who would become her husband–her Koreanness began to feel ever more distant, even as she found the life she wanted to live. It was her mother’s diagnosis of terminal cancer, when Michelle was twenty-five, that forced a reckoning with her identity and brought her to reclaim the gifts of taste, language, and history her mother had given her.

Vivacious and plainspoken, lyrical and honest, Zauner’s voice is as radiantly alive on the page as it is onstage. Rich with intimate anecdotes that will resonate widely, and complete with family photos, Crying in H Mart is a book to cherish, share, and reread.

作者简介

MICHELLE ZAUNER is best known as a singer and guitarist who creates dreamy, shoegaze-inspired indie pop under the name Japanese Breakfast. She has won acclaim from major music outlets around the world for releases like Psychopomp (2016) and Soft Sounds from Another Planet (2017).

精彩摘录

我说爱是行动，是本能，是体会不经意的瞬间，是感知不起眼的付出，是愿意为对方克服困难、忍受不便。最触动我的，就是在我得知妈妈生病以后，他凌晨三点下班以后还一路开车到纽约，只是为了在布鲁克林的一个小仓库里抱着我。在过去的几个月里，只要我需要他，他就会为我飞越三千英里。自六月以来，他耐心地接听我一天五次的来电。虽然我希望我们可以在更为理想的时候再步人婚姻，但这些微不足道的小事让我确信，在我走向前方、拥抱未来时，他就是我所需要的一切。在场的人眼睛都湿润了。

——引自章节：十一你并无多少惊世狂才

我不会让自己的记忆发霉腐烂，不会让创伤慢慢渗透与扩散，不会让过往种种都变得毫无价值。我拥有的是随时可以重温的时刻，是我和妈妈共享的文化，这文化铭刻在我的基因里，蠕动在我的肠胃里，我必须让它们留存下来，而不是逐渐消亡。有朝一日，我会将这一切传递下去。她言传身教的道理，她曾活过的证明，这一切都在我身上，在我的言行举止中。我是她留在这个世上的人。如果我不能跟妈妈在一起，那么，我将会成为她。

——引自章节：十九泡菜冰箱